I've been waiting to smile,
Been holding it in for a while.
I'll take you with me if I can
Been dreaming of this since a child.
cause I'm On Top of the World.
We have a quick and very good week.
Right now we are in two trios. But we kinda switch around a lot and end up with 3 duos or 1 foursome and one couple and etc etc haha. We're just like one big 6 Elder companionship. It's good.
I made $15 off of a bet to eat this super big mexican burrito type thing with only my hands (it was not meant at all to be eaten with hands) but anywho I am now $15 richer.
Been helping some of our students with trigonometry and calculus and everything like it this last week and wow I can't believe how much I've already forgotten but also how fun it is to bring it all back to memory. Like there's so many lil formulas and stuff like that. Don't think I'll ever forget it now. Blessings of a mission.
Can't stop thinking about the blessings of the temple and how excited I am to go inside again one day. The Lao people are a perfect example of putting importance in the temple. They are so amazing in their goals and desire and action to go. President Johnson is the one who interviews for temple recommends for the Lao people and he says that they always cry in the interviews. They are amazing.
Elder Cheney and Elder Saunders did a bunch of Hymn translating before I came to Lao and Elder Cheney and I just finished it so that was fun. I don't know why but I was just really good at finding spelling mistakes in it, even ones that Lao people couldn't find. Niiiiiiice. I gotta be less judging haha.
I am hoping you can understand what I am going to talk about next. Have you ever played Mario Kart? In one of the versions of Mario Kart, there is a game mode called 'Time Trials.' The objective to this game mode is only to race through the map as fast as possible. Your fastest time will appear as a ghost every time you race that same map. So For some reason this game mode fascinated me and I loved it. Naturally I am a pretty competitive person. I love competition. I love sports, and I love making competition out of everything I do. Not because I want to be better than others, but it just makes stuff more fun haha. Anywho, but what about this time trial mode. I didn't really ever enjoy 1 player games because I always wanted to play with others. But time trial playing against myself?
I have been able to more see how my mind works as I have been a missionary. One thing my mind does is comparing myself to others often. In a way that I'm trying to live up to expectations or be as good as someone else at something. I naturally want to be good at everything. But a downside to this attribute is that sometimes my mind excuses me in my weaknesses when someone better than me at something isn't 100% or has a shortcoming. It's hard to explain.
The first example I could come up with is in basketball. Since another really skilled player wasn't playing too well, my mind would then feel that it is okay if I don't play as well. It's as if my mind both feels bad for them, and feels like I then don't have to do my best.
I don't know if any of that makes sense, but it is this bad habit I have that I call "playing with competition." I know many people have it, and it is a 'potential-crushing' thing. It must be overcome.
So what I learned from this silly Mario Kart game as I've randomly pondered about it is that how well others perform and do in life should not affect how you live yours. Racing against myself over and over allowed me to correct those bad turns and drifts I took. This allowed me to even more perfect the good aspects in my skills. Comparing me to myself allowed me to more quickly, consistently, and appropriately become better and fulfill my potential.
I still look to so many people as great examples and strive to be like them. But I am trying so hard to not let others excuse me from anything I'm not doing my best in. I had a lot of thoughts about this in my journal that prolly made sense but anywho this is all for now haha (:
Everything you do, do the best you can. Don't let anything outside of you take away from what you do. That isn't potential.
Best is potential.
I love you (: 💙
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